I am feeling the weight of grief. It came in three’s, sudden and inevitable.
like it is a weighted blanket, built to hold the weight of all three of the lives I lost this week.
Why do emotions have to be connected? Like grief and guilt. Why can’t I feel the grief without the chains of feeling that I should have been better – or done more. Like I can no longer undo what I have done and who we meant to each other.
So strange how much grief is focused on feeling the feelings because I feel numb, like that part of me left with you, the part that feels alive.
Just like someone who doesn’t know what they have till it’s gone.
ashpapzs 