Believe it or not, this was a dream of mine. Well; sort of. I mean, since my youth I have imagined myself amongst other things, a writer. I mean apart from my horrible grammar and spelling, I am educated, and opinionated. The cherry on that sundae? Im also fucking hilarious. I have shit to say about anything, even the things I shouldn’t.
Im sure like many others my age my dreams were vastly shaped by media. Although at times my most feminist self is ashamed to admit it, my youth was vastly shaped by the life of Carrie Bradshaw VIA Sex and the City. I dreamed one day to live my life in lavish clothes, with my best friends, fucking every beautiful man that crossed my path. I would become the black Carrie Bradshaw. (In my mind she looks like scary spice, dresses like posh spice and seduces like ginger spice) #getonmylevel
Two weeks ago I stood in a cap and gown, and was hooded. Officially earning my Masters Degree in Social Work. As the speaker droned on and on about the importance of continued learning, I reflected about the many ways learning has influenced me. With my third degree in tow I have spent quite a bit of time learning. I have learned a lot about things that I didn’t want to, but when the topic was appealing, learning came much easier. Learning is not just external. Through therapy I have done some of the most empowering and valuable form of learning. I learned about what drives me (both positive and negative) I learned about how my experiences shaped me. Most importantly, I learned how to be kind to myself, to let in uncomfortable things exist, and to forgive. Throughout my Masters program I learned of the root of pathology. I have learned the many shapes a person emotional pain can hold. I learned the of the tightrope that one walks, engaging in things that are meant to decrease pain and yet simultaneously hurt us. I learned of what makes person tick, What stands in the way of those scared to be outside of their comfort zone, learning, trying, failing, and even succeeding, most importantly I have learned the rewards of helping others grow and blossom into something more.
You see that for me
learning also means growing
growing sets you free
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